Suddently I felt like crying. And I cried. I cried listening to Lama's songs. I don't know why. Maybe because, what I want to make is so close near me. So close and since so long...
Lama....
She her her hers...
The Novembers....
Coaltar of the deepers....
Goatbed....
Iceman....
This kind of electro songs.. Somehow electro songs remembers me of my mother, and somehow 80ies songs remembers me of my father, and japanese songs.. I have no clue who it reminds me, maybe of me, my truly honest me.
Why do I like dark and sad songs so much ... ?
They are the ones who moves me the most, who moves my soul the most...
There are so many things I relate to...
The sound of the song in ; She her her hers, Lama, Supercar, goatbed, Plastic Tree, Coaltar of the deepers, The Novembers, Downy, The Seeker, Iceman, Toe... And then the lyrics.. As of Aurora, Sakanaction...
Things I could recreate, other not..
Sounds that are deeply engraved in me..
Then lyrics that feels like it hits my soul...
Then Aurora who just seems to me a copy of myself...
So many things I learned about me from just listening to music and discovering artists and knowing more about it, but the more I dive deep, the more I get lost about myself..
I like too many things..
I want to create and make too many thing, that somehow it gets overwhelming.
My love for this world is too big, my love for the creations of humans is too big.
There are so many beautiful things on this earth, created by so many beautiful earthly beings.
I just get tears in my eyes at how it is possible to make such beautiful things...
And then there is me...
Aspiring to create such things..
But in denial..
And still battling to find how and when and if..
I could one day...
